Panicking. Even more now.
Panicking even more now….I can’t stop worrying. I can’t. I just can’t.
It’s been exactly a week since the last time I ever got to see and talk to you ever since you passed away. On that day after school when I passed by you and said hi, I had never expected that day would be the last day I’ll ever get to see or talk to you again. I’ll always remember that smile of yours when you said hi back and I’ll always remember those times we talked to each other in 1st prd. last year and this year. We could have talked to each other on Friday, but you had sat in a different seat(some other person just had to sit in your seat for the most part of the week…).
I miss your cute voice and smile of yours. You’re such a kind-hearted friend and it hurts knowing that you’re gone…All of your friends seemed to had moved on ever since the day after your funeral, but it seems like I’m the only one who hasn’t fully moved on. I just miss you so much…and I just wish you were here right now.
Why does it have to be this way?Just knowing that you only have about 2 months to live just…kills me.I never lost a loved-one but I never knew it might happen at this time during my life.I was expecting it when I’m a lot older but….that’s years from now.I just don’t know how I’m gonna handle it.
I really need to improve on this.I’m gonna have to stop bringing myself down a lot just because others do that a lot to me.
Problems,problems,problems.Then more problems….Sigh.
My horoscope is accurate today.
I was in a really bad mood…but now I’m not for no reason.Well hey,that’s just bipolar me.
Oh great.This is just great.I just hate this horrible feeling coming back to me.Just go away…I just had to think about it again when I had already forgotten about it.
So guess what?
I’m 3 days late on this but…I got a cellphone :3.Yay :3.No more having to get lost and depend on my sister to look for me or borrow her cellphone.Now I can finally contact people when I need to.
